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Heydudebgf
Thursday, June 30, 2011
 Hey dude , ok i know my previous post was about him . Yes i do miss my past but i didnt say i hate it . I hate it when someone talks about it to me , not i hate my past. this week has been really a bad week for a start , really :'( I will tell myself everyday that everything's gonna be ok which is pretending nothing happened and just move on with life . Its not about pretending pretending y'know i pretend to be happy so i won't make others worry about me , but i'll never pretend to be sad , because when it comes to the part"sad" im not kidding . Whn im really really down , i breakdown on the spot , not to attract attention but i just can't hold back my tears when im down . Its natural for girls , those tears , those times when i cried so hard over you , it's because i cherished you as bestfriend . well yeaa past tense , because your decision is not to be friends with me anymore right ? So i'll respect your decision . But i have to tell you this , im pretty upset when you said those tears were fake , how could you say that elf ? ): The moment whn you said fake tears , i brokedown because it somehow gave tht"little impact" on me . A girl would'nt cry so hard for a boy to attract his attention , instead it's natural dude , natural :'( Why would a girl do that ? I can't bare losing a kind-hearted,sweet bestfriend like you . I know you treated me well whn i dont . I treated you like one shit almost everytime , i gave you hopes when i talked to you , i made you wait forever for me but in the end your hopes were crashed . Im sorry for that i admit tht im selfish , i only think about myself . I did not want to lose you but i didnt bother to take care of your feelings , im sorry . Fit told me everything ): This is bottom from my heart . You are not my spare tyre , you were my bestfriend all this while elf . But yea , i can't call you my bestfriend anymore , you didnt want to talk to me and you wanted it to be this way , so i'll respect your decision . This is the only way to tell you since you don't even want to look at me or text , so yea .... ): |