Nothing can break us apart
gossipgal
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Monday, November 21, 2011
 Sometimes,i feel like blogging all day , it makes me feel better . Been having bad days and yes I hate it . Which girl likes having bad days? Its really annoying. I really envy those girls out there who are happy with their life , and im pretty sure they love having happy days , while im stuck here feeling miserable. I can only rant out things here , i like it more here , not twitter because there is a bunch of judgemental people . However when Im here,I can say whatever I want , whatever I wish , whatever I feel like to . I don't know,maybe to me having him not talking to me is the same as having a bad day . I had happy days , he talked to me. Im really happy when he make the effort to talk to me first , I like it that way . I don't have to wait like an idiot girl for his text. I don't have to keep staring at my phone to wait for his name to appear on my phone screen . We had a happy conversation. But sometimes I feel that my happydays are not like a-everyday-routine-cycle-thing because there are times when I sit down like a fool , staring at my phone , waiting for his text , in the end my hopes were crashed down . I waited patiently , patiently but there was no avail. So basically I just wasted my time waiting for his never-gonna-come-text la huh ? Yeah . Why must it be that way ? I just wanna be happy everyday , everyday . Is that too much? Insecurities,for godsake why must I feel that way when he's not even mine? why? He doesn't belong to me but thn again Im afraid to lose him . I ignored my bestguyfriend text just to talk to him , he must be special to me don't you think so? Why am I expecting him to text me everyday? Why must I feel sad when he doesn't talk to me even just for a day? Why must I get jealous whenever I see him talking to other girls? Ok maybe he deserve a better girl than me , prettier maybe? Smarter? More fun and interesting than me? Yeah my insecurities are acting up . Maybe i should just stop hoping and give up soon . Its a sooner or later thingy though. Give up now , or give up later? At the end of the day I have to make up my mind and move on eventually. |