Nothing can break us apart
gossipgal
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Saturday, May 19, 2012
why do I deserve this? Why is it me? Why must it happen to me? Am I that bad? Do I have that bad personality until everyone hates me? Even my friends? Even if I have one,why cant people just forgive me for my doings. Humans make mistakes don't they? I make mistakes too,ya I admit like whole lot of them,but I am really trying my best to learn from them and improved on my flaws. Why can't people just see the effort that I'm making? I am really really really trying my very best to change myself for better not to be someone else. I still want be the real me without faking it,without people judging it. I mean,ya I do know that everyone judges including me,but that doesn't mean that they have to hate me just because of something I've done wrong right? I'm really tired pleasing everyone in this society. This society is made up of a group of people but then there are still different kinds of categories that fall into this group. To you guys,it is normal to say that the society is fucked up. You know why is it fucked up? Because you guys fall into one category which is the judgementalpeepz. You guys don't forgive and forget about matters or incidents. You guys go around and spread rumours about it,you guys talk behind someone's back,two-faced with each other and can never accept someone's flaws. Right? Prove to me that I'm wrong. Prove it. I fall into this category too,but I'm learning how to control myself and not lose it just like that. Why can't you guys just accept and face the reality that you guys are two-faced why? Up till now,I just don't see the reason why must you guys act like this way. Honestly,in this entry I am not referring to the general public/society here in Singapore. Yes,I do make mistakes. I do. It may be a big one or a small one,it doesn't matter,but at least I take the courage and urge to improve on it so that I won't repeat the same mistake over again. I know im selfish self-centered,have the big ego. I've always been giving in and apologies to the other party when we fight because in life,its all about giving in and taking it back. Its part and parcel of life. Why can't people get it straight into their brain that we should always give in? So,in order not to give in,you guys talked behind my back,you guys joined team together or tag team or whatever you call it,you guys spread the rumours,you guys put words into my mouth,you guys didn't talk to me,you guys push me aside and two-faced. In other words,aren't you guys actually planning to bring me down? I treated you guys like my real friends,my true friends,the ones that I could trust,the one that I can rely on when I have nobody else to turn to,the ones who give me support all this while,the ones that I share secrets with and the ones that I love the most and will always love you guys more than anything else. Why do you guys doing this to me? Why are guys joining team and trying to bring me down? By retweeting those tweets I really can see that you guys wanna make me feel bad about it. YES I DO I DO FEEL BAD ABOUT IT SATISFIED? WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT? WHAT????????If my own friends are doing this to me,I might as well just end my life here and die right. You girls dont wanna look at my face,dont want me to be in the clique,YOU GUYS ARE TRYING YOUR BEST TO BRING ME DOWN AND MAKE EVERYONE HATES ME RIGHT???? AM I RIGHT TO SAY THIS? AM I??? AM I??!!!! I cry myself to sleep every night,thinking about our friendship. But this friendship between us doesnt mean anything to you guys anymore right? I was really upset that you guys are doing this to me till I thought of committing suicide,because there's no point living anymore You guys hate me so much,dont you? You guys dont wish to see my face anymore dont you? Ya might as well I just die kill myself. |